Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Y alwaz let me b the last to know????

Today i really feel bad!!!!!! Feel like dying....
I just finished my exam yesterday... Tot to RELAXXXXXXXXXXX this few days...
Cleaning up photos... Really lazy to post a blog...
Until today...

445pm(Korea Time)
On Msn:-
Bro : I've got a bad news
Me : what???
Bro : U hv to b prepared
Me : what is that what is that??? what what what??
Bro : You have to calm down..
Me : OK~
Bro : Mum might having cancer... the chance is 90%
Me : HUH?!
Bro : I go to hospital with her, and doc help her to scan...monday the report will come out... but 90% is Cancer....
Me : ...
Bro: And if is Cancer, is already final stage it might have 6months to 1 years life to live....
Me : ?!?! how if is not a cancer??
Bro : Dr. said alot of cells in her liver...so just have to wait for the report...
Me : Maybe is a good cell leh?? there is alwaz a good Cancer and bad cancer...
Bro : is too many too be good!!!
Me : You'll nv know... coz we cant explain it.... it got alots of way...
Bro: True also...but i m really sad...
Me : NO! u have to be tough...
Bro : I have to act nothing in front of them...
Me : ...
Bro : You dont let mum and dad know as they donno it...
Me : U "sot"ar... u think i m crazy meh... i wont tell them no worries..
Bro : coz u tell them, i afraid mum will give up...
Me : NOla~ mum wont.... she wont give up... she is just lazy...
Bro: so i buy alot of medicine for her... she one day have to take "36"pills!!!!
Me : O.O so many?????!?!!
Bro : Yes. that is why hard to eat...
Me : u have to take care of ah je, as she is really easy to cry...
Bro : yala! i alwaz scold her as her not to cry...
Me : if she cry alot then mummy will suspect one...
Bro : yeah.hey! u really tougher than i thought...
Me : for sure la!!!! mummy sure no prob one why should i cry??? sien yee also can stand for 7 yeras mummy sure can one.....
Bro : True also. She wont have anything happen...
Me : yeah!!... but how come like this one?? u guys got go to hospital one ma, how come until now they straight away said is final stage??? until now we cant do anything then they only tell us one???
Bro : nola!! this is silent killer...before that no one will know one...
Me : oh!!but nvm la..i believe mummy wont have anything one!!!! be positive be positive!!!
Bro : yeah!
Me : tomorrow i will go to pray for mummy.... u also go to pray ya!!!
Bro : yeah, this saturday i m going to Teluk Intan to pray for her...
Me : trust me la... mummy will get well one...
Bro : ...
Me : Think positive la... u see alot of drama... u also know la... think positive then everything will be fine... ^^...
Bro : ok~ u take care...dont fall sick...
Me : no worries... i m very strong.. i wont fall sick....
Bro : ok...
Me : gor~ u r the MAN in the family!!! i love u!!!
Bro : ok la... i have to go back to take care of them la...
Me : ^^ okok~ u MUST take care too ya!!
Bro : ok la..bye...
Me : bye~ flying kiss*~~

Bro~i m sorry...actually i m not as tough as u think.... i m crying in front of the computer while u telling me this....but i m just acting i m STRONG coz u already have so many things to worry... i dont wish that u will worry about me too.... as in u wont read my blog so i can diagest my feeling here!!! T.T really really really sorry about that...

My tear cant stop until now....is already 7++pm out there...I m tired while writing this post...but i cant stop writing as i already have to many things to say....

How come alwaz let me be the last to know things happen??? papa enter hospital...mummy blood pressure got prob...sugar level up~ and now... i really hope i can be with her right now!!!!! T.T... Everyone pls help me to pray for my mum!!!! PRAY FOR SHE WILL BE ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!
I BELIEVE THAT SHE WILL!!!! SHE REALLY WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hope what i saw and heard was just a DREAM!!! pls someone WAKE ME UP!!!!....

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